THE INTERNAL IDENTITY OF HIS IDENTICAL ENEMY By Jasen Sousa

THE INTERNAL IDENTITY OF HIS IDENTICAL ENEMY


Alan is 19-years-old.
A recent high school graduate,
and for the first time in his life
he has no where he has to go.

The friends he used to hang with have gone to college
to seek knowledge, Alan took a few classes, but a diploma
seemed too far away.

Alan feels like his old friends have abandoned him.
He searches for new friends that will respect him,
but he has to live a different lifestyle for them to accept him.

He searches relentlessly
for a style for his soul.

Alan’s description,
he’s got white skin, a slight grin,
and he acts like he is black.
He wears fake platinum chains and a backwards cap.

His image kept getting stronger,
but his spirit kept getting weaker.

Alan began hanging with new friends and new crews
and started to adapt their values and views.
His new friends are Irish,
which means his pants are less baggy.

His new friends were into drugs,
he now believed in getting high.
He put away his basketball sneakers,
now he rocks low tops with no socks.
Went from being a jock to being a delinquent
who loved messing with cops.

He wears a scaly cap
and a shamrock tee-shirt for good luck.
Adapted a mentality,
“I just don’t give a fuck.”

His mom gives him an allowance,
but he never has anything to show for it,
drugs are bought with every buck.

She used to hear gangsta rap from his room,
now she hears Sinatra and The Beatles.
She has heard he has been smoking weed and popping pills,
and she prays that he’s not messing with needles.

Alan used to spend his time
shooting baskets on the court,
now he hangs with kids
who smoke, sniff, shoot, and snort.
He has a great mind,
a mind drugs will eventually distort.
He used to hold the world in his hands,
now he just holds a Newport.




Taken From
Almost Forever By Jasen Sousa (Written between age 22 and 23)
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